Friendship are the hardest relationship ever....

FRIENDSHIP..  are the most hardest relationship that i ever been through.. Without Friendship this world cannot go round as supposed it should be...Friends.. and each of them.. have a different attitude.. different feelings.. different thought..different mind approaching.. I can be angry and show it directly to my family or to my Love but I just cant do it in front of my friends..

Friendship.. keep on teaching me and showing the meaning of life.. the beauty of joy.. the sorrow of pain.. the laughter of a smile.. a word when it spoken...

Friendship.. can divided into many categories.. Girl friendship.. Guy Friendship.. Lust friendship.. Fashion Friendship.. Shopping Friendship ..False Friendship.. & so the list continued........  Whatever it is.. I called my friendship as a roller coaster Friendship...

Friendship.. sometimes.. we may have our own up & down memories.. but does it worth it to hurts one of each other?? Maybe we have to.. somehow somewhere.. The pain we have will teach us to be stronger.. to be bonds with each other.. to make us realize that we need each other.. My mouth maybe in silent.. but cant u hear me scream my dear friends.. I NEED YOU.. I LOVE YOU.. I LOVE ALL THE UP & DOWN MEMORIES.. talk with me.. Hug me.. Tease me.. Hold me.. Love me..

Friendship.. My eyes are dry.. but I shed a tears for you.. We may not agree with each other every time or on everything.. & yes.. we have arguing on some stuff but Trust me.. I didnt break a single pieces of love  that I share on you...

Friendship.. why do we keep on talking back of each other?? It is not because we wanna talk bad about each other.. Either we realize it or not.. we keep on doing it cause we didnt wan to break each other heart.. Being honesty its like the most scariest part ever.. We just have no guts to tell on each other faces saying 'U R WRONG!!! '.. & You know why?? because we to care of one another... But that how the relationship goes whether we like it or not.. Honesty is the best policy..

As I wrote this simple notes.. I can feel a single warm of tears & I started to smile.. Hey for what you wanna be so emo right now?? Yes.. maybe we have something going on right now but we never stop here.. We gonna be friends forever... As we walk & continue our love journey.. there will be lots of roads.. stones.. bumps that we have to cross.. but dont worry my dear friend.. take my hand... let go through it together.. Dont walk infront of me .I may not follow.. Dont walk behind me..I may not lead.. But please walk besides me.. Teach me how to be a better person.. Hold my hands & lets continues this journey together.....

 <3 A BEST FRIENDS IS LIKE A SISTER THAT DESTINY FORGOT TO GIVE YOU <3

I USED to Copycat HER..

When I was in the Middle High School, I had had bunch of BEST GIRL FRIENDS ..Well one of them name is FARLIN.. well..we kinda like twins..not like the identical twins.. well maybe cause we so so so into each other.. I guess ...Me and her cant separated even for one minutes.. except when the bells out and it is time to go back.. we never like the school dorm ( hostel ) anyway..Most the students said.. its haunted... @_@  yadaa yadda yaddaa...

So me and Farlin..well we kinda popular that time.. haha..funny but we were... :p ..She kinda well known amongs boys in our age..& me among our senior... U know.. how the things going on.. a cute junior with 17 years old girl's body..That is one stupid stuff... ok leave that..Well our senior always wanna tackle both of us but me & Farlin always make dumb and silly face towards them.. so they make up a bullsh** stories and spread the whole school ... & u know what it is.. Cindy & Farlin are lesbian.. lolz... haha.. just because we didnt gave a damn about them.. 

Despite all the good stuff happen between me and Farlin.. actually deep inside.. I always wanted to b like her..Pretty and smart girl... She always have the bright smile in her face and she is so girly.. like so lady-like.. compared to me.. I was the 'cute' Goth wannabe... Trying to be the skater girl.. trying to be the rock star.. haha.. 

She loves all the cute stuff.. I love all the black weird stuff.. She always tied her hair like the kawaaii japanese girls.. I always tied up my hair pony tail wif black ribbon. Her soft-ness make the boys love her so much.. Well my darkside eventually always attracts the guys.. ueeewwwwwwwww.... But although both of us have so much friends still I really dont like myself.. I dont know why am I gone wrong..Well yes.. I did change myself for my 1st crush but still im not happy for it maybe cause because im not being myself.. So I make a promise to myself..I will change myself like FARLIN.. so in the middle of the year.. maybe 2003 if im not mistaken.. I forced myself to like PINK.. not the artist.. color of cause..Tied my hair like silly with clips and cute ribbon.. wear baju kurung so I can look more 'ayu'... hahaha.. and change the way i talk .u know.. from normal to soft range.. & You know what.. I FEEL LIKE HELL!! gossh.. what a stupid decision.. 1st I try to change myself for a guy.. and then I try to change myself like my BFF (as you know Davien likes her alots).. well makes sense anyway... but it doesnt matter.. for the past 2 years.. Im living in a lie...

God make me this way.. God created me as wonderful as I can be.. SO what the hell am i trying to do?? I left so many things just because I pretend to be someone else..But it didnt bring me down.. because I know.. Who am I.. I know where I stand right now..It just a simple stories I wanna share with you..World will be not bright if u just not be urself :) ... People might not see your true beauty.. but U r perfect enough for me ..so Dont change urself for anyone.. do it for your own good... <3 u all...