I USED to Copycat HER..

When I was in the Middle High School, I had had bunch of BEST GIRL FRIENDS ..Well one of them name is FARLIN.. well..we kinda like twins..not like the identical twins.. well maybe cause we so so so into each other.. I guess ...Me and her cant separated even for one minutes.. except when the bells out and it is time to go back.. we never like the school dorm ( hostel ) anyway..Most the students said.. its haunted... @_@  yadaa yadda yaddaa...

So me and Farlin..well we kinda popular that time.. haha..funny but we were... :p ..She kinda well known amongs boys in our age..& me among our senior... U know.. how the things going on.. a cute junior with 17 years old girl's body..That is one stupid stuff... ok leave that..Well our senior always wanna tackle both of us but me & Farlin always make dumb and silly face towards them.. so they make up a bullsh** stories and spread the whole school ... & u know what it is.. Cindy & Farlin are lesbian.. lolz... haha.. just because we didnt gave a damn about them.. 

Despite all the good stuff happen between me and Farlin.. actually deep inside.. I always wanted to b like her..Pretty and smart girl... She always have the bright smile in her face and she is so girly.. like so lady-like.. compared to me.. I was the 'cute' Goth wannabe... Trying to be the skater girl.. trying to be the rock star.. haha.. 

She loves all the cute stuff.. I love all the black weird stuff.. She always tied her hair like the kawaaii japanese girls.. I always tied up my hair pony tail wif black ribbon. Her soft-ness make the boys love her so much.. Well my darkside eventually always attracts the guys.. ueeewwwwwwwww.... But although both of us have so much friends still I really dont like myself.. I dont know why am I gone wrong..Well yes.. I did change myself for my 1st crush but still im not happy for it maybe cause because im not being myself.. So I make a promise to myself..I will change myself like FARLIN.. so in the middle of the year.. maybe 2003 if im not mistaken.. I forced myself to like PINK.. not the artist.. color of cause..Tied my hair like silly with clips and cute ribbon.. wear baju kurung so I can look more 'ayu'... hahaha.. and change the way i talk .u know.. from normal to soft range.. & You know what.. I FEEL LIKE HELL!! gossh.. what a stupid decision.. 1st I try to change myself for a guy.. and then I try to change myself like my BFF (as you know Davien likes her alots).. well makes sense anyway... but it doesnt matter.. for the past 2 years.. Im living in a lie...

God make me this way.. God created me as wonderful as I can be.. SO what the hell am i trying to do?? I left so many things just because I pretend to be someone else..But it didnt bring me down.. because I know.. Who am I.. I know where I stand right now..It just a simple stories I wanna share with you..World will be not bright if u just not be urself :) ... People might not see your true beauty.. but U r perfect enough for me ..so Dont change urself for anyone.. do it for your own good... <3 u all...