My 1st CRUSH :D

First CRUSH... Gosh.. Actually I never thought I will have any crush on anyone before but it happen but a long time ago.. I dont recall I have one now but suddenly It hits me.. What about him that was so SPECIAL until I can have a MAJOR CRUSH ON HIM!!!  of course this an BIG ISSUE.. well for me cause being a CONVENT GIRL for almost 6 years makes me allergic to boys.. like ok.. this is hard to believe right but yeah.. I do hates boys when I was in primary School...

My 1st Crush happen when I entered middle school at SMK LIKAS SABAH..There he was... looking so handsome and tall.. He has the charmed eyes that makes my heart beating like a drum.. For my 13 years entire life I never feel the way i felt when he gave me the 1st humble glanced :) ... But nah.. I just acted like watever... boys will be boys.. ewwwwwwwww!!! On the 1st day of school, i entered the class late so I have no choice but sat besides him. Then my classroom teacher called out each of our named for the attendance list.. "CINDY DEVIE"..and of cause each student have to raise up their hand if their name were called out... "DAVIEN JONES" .. and everybody in d class was suddenly screaming n yelling like a zoo!! 'PHEWWWIITTTTT!! " DEVIE & DAVIEN..What a GOOD COMBINATION!!! " .. Both of us was like GOSSHH!!! damn blushed!!! The worst part was It didnt stop there.. The whole class been teasing us for 3YEARS IN A ROW!! 

So two years have passed & now both of us reached 15 years old.. and of cause I have my own BFF :) .. Her name is Farlin.. We like twins.. like whenever I went..there she was :)... ( I will talk about her on my next post aite) ^_^ ...I heard that DAVIEN HAD A CRUSHED ON FARLIN!! gosh.. for the first time.. I think i had a broken hearted... like is this for real.. & I cried for the whole night.. Davien was my crushed for the past two years and He makes me feel so invisible.. All he saw was HER.. MY OWN BFF.. so I have to back off and let it go..But then Davien never told his feeling towards Farlin.. HE TOLD ME!!! can u believe it!! ME!! D GIRL WHO REALLY LIKES HIM FOR 3 YEARS!!!! Well maybe God knows how broken hearted am I & How down am I.. Turns out Farlin couple with my NEIGHBOUR... His name is ANIS if im not mistaken..But the twist were.. Davien also couple with another GIRL!! from other school..SMK PEREMPUAN LIKAS and her name is EMILY...and HERE I GO AGAIN.. left alone and feeling invisible again.. 

The funny part and the things i will never forget was.. I try to be like his dream girls. so that DAVIEN can noticed me.. I've changed to be his dream girl.. ( Well i got the information form his pet sister).. hahahaha.. I cut my hair so SHORT from waist length..I try to listened and bought a bunched of ROCK MUSIC cds.. such as System of A Down..Linkin park.. Korn.. Puddle of Mudd and etc..... I changed my looked to be GOTHS... I learned how to play skate board.. ((but now im so not gud at it!!)).. I try to be a tomboy like his GIRLFRIEND EMILY.. but nothing happen.. YES.. he noticed ME.. but It never happen the fact ME & HIM should be together... But then my nightmare were over as I moved out to OTHER HIGH SCHOOL.. 

Year after years i realized that no matter how many times or how much u've changed for a guys.. It juz not worth it girl when he never loves you.. Try to be yourself.. Learn to love urself before you love other.. As for me.. i juz take my 1st crush as my 1st experience of being hurts.. being down.. and whats important was.. I learnt so many things in the whole processes of being me and my single step of being ME ^_^ ...

P/S : To Davien Jones.. Thankz for bringing out the best & the worst in ME ^_^ .. may your life journey will be so wonderful as mine :) .. Appreciate what life has given to you :) ... 

To my readers : IVE FOUND SOMEONE NEW ^_^ ... well behalf the process on this.. I have so many experience wanna share with you so stay wth my stories okies... cause the next post will be on MY1ST PUPPY LOVE... <3 U ALL...